7.05.2008
Ick!
In the mean time, please bear with me and the horrible colors as I try to make this space a little more homey. Any tips you web-ninja types may have would be greatly appreciated!
7.04.2008
Dear Church Friend - VBS
I'd like to start a series of posts called 'Dear Church Friend' in which I address some of the issues I'm thinking through. The series was inspired by InternetMonk's post What You Can't Say Around Christians.
Church Friend, I know I've been heavily involved in the past, so this is pretty confusing for you. I decided against a press conference, but quietly resolved after many years and countless injuries, that I will no longer compete in the Spiritual Olympics. No more running races and competing with others to win position or favor from man or God. I know that you don't intentionally compete with people, I didn't either. But this is what happens when true discipleship is replaced with hierarchy and position. I know you want to help people, and feel like this leadership role is the logical next step in your growth, but it's Mary and Martha all over again. We'll talk more on this thought later. I have much to say!
Your seemingly-uncommitted-Christian friend,
6.13.2008
Recalibration? Huh?
To elaborate a little more specifically on my recalibration, here is my faith-journey in a vary small nutshell:
I became a Christian at 15, after a friend had taken me to church with her for a year or so. The particular denomination we belonged to is very restrictive about forms of worship and the role that women can play within the congregation. As in, they are not allowed to speak at all. They also believe that baptism (full immersion, of course) is the absolute point of salvation. No one could answer my questions or objections I had on these subjects, so I left when I graduated high school. My friend and her family still consider my then-boyfriend (now husband) as the evil one who led me astray. [Note: Said husband says I need to make him look cooler here... I'll get to him more in-depth in later posts!]
I married my high-school sweetheart while we were in college, had some kiddos, and promptly descended straight into the Evangelical Ghetto. Dobson was My President and I was a good warrior in the culture war. We were attending a small Baptist church, where I started a moms ministry and my husband became a deacon. We were the All-American Family and a great advertisement for all that Christianity has to offer! **Insert toothy smile here** Eventually we left to join a megachurch that was more ‘frontline’ in the political side of the culture war and heavily involved in what we thought was ‘evangelism’. My husband and I both ended up on staff there, but left suddenly when it was obvious that the pastor didn’t live what he taught. He’s now being investigated by the IRS and state authorities for fraud.
We now occasionally attend the small, rural Bible church where we were married. We went there to ‘heal’ after the megachurch debacle. [We'll unpack this whole mess in subsequent posts] It’s not the healing place we thought it was going to be, and is in fact fraught with most of the same issues as the megachurch, only on a smaller, somewhat less devious scale. Funny how that works! It’s that realization that brought on recalibration. If the same problems are so prevalent everywhere, then something must be wrong with the model. Thus began the period of de-construction for me. This blog is an attempt at therapy, an outward working of the thoughts that now threaten to make my brain explode… Enjoy!
6.09.2008
Howdy & Welcome!
*Edited before anyone asks about my blogroll: Of course the LOL Cats on ICanHasCheezburger.com have impacted my theology! How could they not? I mean, really. What's not to love about Basement Cat and Ceiling Cat or even Ceiling Cat Witnesses with free samples of Scratchtower Magazine? They can't spell and their grammar is horrific, but don't hold that against them. Check it out!